cheer up emo kids.
i think im in the worst kind of emotastic mood. I have no relationship to base mine on. Well not exactly. I'm kicking myself for letting him go but at the same time, i know him well enough to know that he cared but he didn't know how to show it and thats why it didn't go anywhere. well thats what i want to believe. the pieces fit that way. But boy do i want him home.
i'm not making sense and i'm not going to.
Actually I don't know what i want more. I would love to be excited about going to college where there will be thousands of new opportunities but at times i would rather sit at home and waste away thinking of what could have been and all of the chances i still have to make it be and how to perfect them.
i miss him and its sickening. i want it to go away. sort of.
i feel like high school, relationship-wise, was a total failure. i didn't even have one to talk about homies.
i'm not depressed. just a little dissappointed. what stories do i have to tell about high school love? stories of unrequited love? stories of my almost but not really relationship that doesn't even make sense?
i feel like i missed out.
now i'm just whining.
i'm not upset.
i just wish i had a story worth telling.